Busy

i dont understand.

i wake up early at 6am every morning, prepare for my lessons, go to work, supervise the reno, come home, bathe and dinner, prepare for lessons again, and BAM!!! the clock hits 11pm and another day ends. my poor little girl always wait for me to coax her to sleep. i m so selfish and i dont want to sacrifice the play with her before bed, cause that's my only time with her! she sleeps so late nowadays, cause her mommy doesn't seem to have enough hours in the day!! i feel so bad!! i m not teaching her anything and we do not have much quality time together ... but seriously, how am i supposed to teach her and play with her when i m running around just trying to keep things up? everything takes longer then i think and to be frank, not feeling stressful is nearly impossible.

some ppl ask, u r just teaching in kindergarten, what's there to do? i m not sure abt other kindy, but our kindy is really a hectic one. look at my pending work list now, i have to do a chart for spelling result, prepare the homework for chinese class, prepare the monthly & weekly lesson plan, prepare myself to teach the egyptian dance for our K2 graduation, prepare K2's art & craft sample for august, prepare some teaching materials and wall charts for my class. all these take a lot of time, believe me. i dont know how the rest of the teachers survived through, but for ME, i only have 1 primary focus, everything i do is to head towards this goal, that is to own my own kindergarten and run it together with my 2 sis!!! i know i should slow down since i won't start commencing a school till 2010 end, but i just think i need to learn more and more ... that's why i refuse to let go any learning opportunity that could enhance my experience.

i dont know how. really. i have been thinking to quit for the past few weeks, cause i want to spend more time at home with my little girl for at least another few months before she attends nursery ... but it is really hard to let go ... my K2 class, my lovely K2 kids, the egyptian dance ... hai ... what am i supposed to do?