grandma was so SURPRISED to see little chloe!these are what i've got for chloe from taka baby fair ...
Bumbo Baby Sitter
Dinner with gy and yc at sushi tei, raffles city last night. gy's in her last trimester now, EDD in mid Oct, looking awesome in her preggy blouse.
so happy for her ... watching her with her hubby from first being together ... got married ... till now expecting the arrival of newborn ... she always look so contented and blissful. wondering what the baby will look like ... more like her mommy or daddy? we were also discussing on what to buy for her newborn. and guess what, she said she wants ang pao. huh ....
frankly speaking, i m a bit worried for yc. she's of cos a great buddy, a thoughful and understanding buddy, but ... when most of the friends are ready to tight up all the loose ends of the future, it seems like she is not quite ready to settle down. i sincerely hope she finally would have the life she's always wanted ... wish her all the best.
was certainly a fun evening with these two ladies enjoying a night of breathtaking ... priceless.
yeah yeah ... i wasn't going to buy anything ... but at the end, i splurged.
here is a list of this week's purchase:
1. LV Monogram Speedy - for myself
2. Tiffany RTT Oval Tag Bracelet - for myself
3. Tiffany Ven Link Bracelet - for dear hubby
4. Bumbo Baby Sitter - for little chloe
5. Fisher-Price 3-in-1 Rocker Swing - for little chloe
cant mention the prices here, cos dear hubby is going to scream!
i have been thinking for a get away recently ... by myself ... get away for a few days to just relax, recharge and be my old self again. been thinking to go shanghai ... and still considering ... mom has been pretty supportive with this idea, cos she pity me for being forever fatigue and sleep-starved. haha. let me think about it.
i grew up in a close-knit family and surrounded by unconditional love plus strong family bonding, therefore i always think we should be filial to our parents & ILs and take good care of them when they are at their ripe old age. however, in my case, i have totally given up. now the relationship has turned sour, i sincerely feel bad about it. i certainly agree that DIL can never be like own daughter, vice versa, i cant possibly love MIL like my own mom too, but ... pls ... at least ... at least be more fair to me can?
after months of struggling, i realized, the root cause of my MIL problem is often hidden deep in her unconscious. in her eyes, there is nothing wrong with her behaviour. it is all about ME. one important thing that i only realized after spoken to a close friend, she might be feeling like i have stolen her son!! therefore she unconsciously had repeatedly testing my hubby's "loyalty", forcing him to choose between her way of doing things and mine. poor hubby is certainly set up to fail, cos when he points out MIL's mistake, MIL would think he is siding me, but in fact he is prob only telling the truth. worse still when i m doing the same thing by repeatedly asking him to choose between me and his mom's method.
sometimes after argument, when i m left alone, i would feel guilty and blame myself for being too petty over those small little little things. cant i just ignore all her "unconstructive" remarks? cant i just close one eye when she's being "mean" and sarcastic? or sometimes when i m asked to do unreasonable things, cant i just walk away if i dont feel like doing it?
dont think i m talented in all these trivial matters. i m sure my caliber is designed for something more important and not this kind of family soap drama. have done my very best to accept, endure plus tolerate, but too bad, it just didnt work out cos she is neither a considerate nor an understanding one. i dont mind having a naggy MIL, but not one who is always forcing me to follow her way of doing things without compromising and give & take.
i sincerely think she should redefine her relationship with dear hubby, as well as make room for a new relationship with me. she is obviously trying to train me in her family custom, recipes as well as practices in baby care. if i still stick to my own way of doing things and my own method, then i m being selfish and unreasonable. enough is enough. and pls ... stop gossiping behind my back, in front of hubby's siblings, our other relatives, her many many friends and my maid ... if she wants to vent about me, pls do not twist/exaggerate the story and say something untrue. i m sure she would never mention to others that i have tried to compromise and make tones of suggestions to just make things work.
episodes keep rolling everyday while we were living together. how to be a filial DIL? i also dont know ...
princess chloe had hard time falling asleep for the past few nights. well, in fact, she has never been an easy sleeper since born. however, she already can have long night sleep without waking up for night feed. during the day, she can fall asleep easily in hammock. whereas at night, putting her to sleep can be extremely daunting for me. it usually takes at least 2 hours for her to fall asleep. this is driving me crazy. i m barely functioning during the day due to extremely fatigue, and i m feeling sleep starved all the time. sigh. how i wish hubby is here with me.
expert said, we can help putting bb into regular pattern of sleep so long as we act consistently and positively. if we feed her to sleep (yes, i usually feed her to sleep!), she will need you to do the same everytime when she goes to bed; if we leave her alone to sleep, she will expect that. meaning said, she has to go through countless crying nights before she is able to put herself to sleep and finally established a good sleeping habit, and i would never know if she is going to scream her head off or whimper softly just to get the last word in. cant imagine that. cant bear to do that to her too. hai ... what m i supposed to do leh??
the feeling of coming home is great! my past whole week at home, spent time talking to papa, mammy and my 2 dearest sisters. feeling so much happier and relieved ... these are the people whom i love and who love me unconditionally ...
chloe finally met up with grandpa, grandma and 2 yi yi. everybody simply loves and adores her so so much! with their help, i managed to rest a little bit more. gosh. i really need a break! had not been sleeping well ever since i got pregnant. other people cant understand how tire i m, but my own family could. hubby helped out a lot too, cause he knows he would be apart from us for the next few weeks.
rented a car for a month. yup. hooray! that means i m going to stay here for at least a month. so happy and yet so sad, cause hubby cant stay long. he has gone off this morning. why must i be apart from either party ? together with hubby meaning got to stay away from home. staying at home meaning would b apart from hubby. sigh. why cant things be perfect?
nevertheless, i m going to enjoy this one whole month as much as possible. want to go shopping at orchard, hi-tea and dinner with all my kakis and indulge myself with slimming and facial sessions!! yeah yeah yeah! grace ho is alive again!!
My baby gal was born on 11th May 2007 at Gleneagles Medical Centre in Penang. She weighed 3.2kgs and was 51cm long at birth. The 1st moment i saw her, all the things i thought i would do or say seem to be lost in the wonder of this little human being. Complete with cute cute features and tiny hands & feet, my heart was filled with happiness and gratefulness. All i thought was, "oh my goodness, this is my dearest daughter! thanks to the grace of god for giving me such a gorgeous little one. i dont care if she has got double eye lids or puffy lip, all i want is a healthy she!!" Haha! It is truly the most beautiful creature i had ever seen, and the moment i 1st saw her was the most wonderful moment that could ever be imagined. This little one ... Baby Chloe is now the inspiration of my life !
Let me officially introduce this young little fellow - Chloe Teh Jing Xuen 郑聿恩 ... you would probably be wondering, how come the chinese name doesnt match with the english name. Haha! Well ... ya ya ya ... we (it was me actually) havent really decide on her chinese name!! (what??!) ... haha ... after going through all the hassle of counting strokes and bla bla bla ... the name is still "work in progress". By the way, the name "Chloe" is pronounced as KLOH-ee. It is of Greek origin, meaning "blooming". With the presence of this little "blooming" one, my world would henceforth never be the same ...
I am amazed and proud to see my little gal is growing up, and i can see a little bit of myself in her. Haha. She is so impatience, just like me; she needs companions, just like me; she likes to stay in crowd, just like me ... oh ... i simply just love her so so much ... and well, of course she is the reason for me to start blogging. I want to blog about her daily life, her growth, and her every milestone (as if i will be very hardworking to blog) ... so one day when me and hubby retired, we would prob spend time watching her video clips and reading back these blog diaries to bring back those vivid memories and happy days ...
Chloe ya ... mommy might be lazy wor ... so ... pls give mommy full support k!
